MedtaPhysical

Doing my best to update this blog so that I may one day look back upon my journey. Saturday January 23rd, watched Suicide Squad with M--for the first time I did not lash out at M for my jealousy, even though I asked him questions and got down on myself; so far had done candle magick for self-love and talisman to "Release the Pain of Jealousy". I could really sense it at work here. Sunday January 24th--woke up at 5 am with M and rode bike laps around the neighborhood, had a great morning, however, depression and anxiety set in in the evening due to desire to "cheat".  Monday January 25th, felt pretty down and depressed in the morning--starting the week feeling down about work, etc. I suppose my stress came from pressure to research wedding venues this past weekend which I did not start on. I put on my to-do list to complete the Middle Pillar (since I started crying when I attempted this on Monday morning) and do yoga in the evening. It was raining in the evening and ...